Welcome to my horse blog. What I hope to chronicle here is what I learn from owing a horse.
But first, a little back story:
About a week ago, I was was riding along in the company UTV at about 55 miles an hour with my supervisor who was driving at the time, just minding my own business, eyes closes, enjoying the peace in my heart and mind - a rarity in my being - after being liberated (at least temporarily) from the need to control everything in my life out of a need for security (Tip: it doesn't work.), when I heard God speak:
Buy a horse.
What?
All sorts of questions began flooding my mind: Wha..? Me? A horse? Well, maybe some day... But wait: Why not NOW? TODAY is that day! Well.... okay, I can see how this could be a good thing. It could teach me communication, relationship, discipline, leadership, trust... and all kinds of things I don't know about myself, or horses.
There is SO much I don't know. I felt completely inept at the thought of being responsible for something so BIG! (Not to mention expensive...) So much responsibility in caring for such a dependent and somewhat fragile (if not just sensitive) creature. God, I don't know what to do!!
It occurred to me (or God showed me) that it's like a new parent caring for an infant: you learn as you go. Yes, I will make mistakes. Sometimes egregious ones. But I will LEARN. I will GROW. I will mature. And, I hope, in the long run, be able to apply life's lessons learned on this adventure.
Okay. So, a horse! Wow! I was in awe. Still am! God decided it was finally time for me to have a horse. :-) Funny, when I think I am least capable, God brings the very thing into my life on which I had given up hope.
I by no means expect this to be simple or easy - I get the feeling this will be a humbling process. I am going to discover things about myself that I have no doubt long forgotten about, or never been aware of in the first place. But I'm confident this will be a journey of discovery, revelation, and of deep, deep healing. Horses are rarely the problem when a rider is having difficulty. A horse is honest when something is wrong; Truer than many people are to their best friends under the best of circumstances.
So, let the journey of discovery begin!
